Pit

Okay, I know, I know. This is not typically the type of work I post. It's dark.

This is actually a picture based off of a dream I had-a vision. I've only ever had 2 of them- both of which stuck with me and never left. This is one of them.

To open myself up a bit, I struggled for 7 years in bondage, fighting the same battles and developing an unhealthy mindset in the process. No matter how many times I'd hear messages on 'no condemnation through Jesus' I just couldn't seem to take hold of it. I knew it was the truth- without a doubt. But for whatever reason, I felt I was the exception. I struggled with the same sin for 7yrs and would constantly repent- and mean it! but I would fall over and over again, and it would break my heart. I would cry to God at night out of frustration. But it actually drew me closer and closer to God. Sin pushes people away from Him, and people often don't feel they can approach God so they fall away, which I find incredibly sad. I just couldn't do that. I loved God way to much and had faith that somehow He'd deliver me. And He did!

A couple months ago, I experienced God in a whole new way. His presence came on me so strong. I shook and sobbed and all i could do was worship. In the presence of Jesus there is deliverance. Enemies must flee! I can happily say that that sin I struggled with for 7yrs- the bondage- has been broken! Praise God!

I was not in this place of freedom though when I had this vision. And I know God was trying to get this to me. In it, there were huge animals, not normal, more beastly. And they were roaming the lands. The sky was reddish- so my dream all had this red tone. I was in a ruined house where walls were down and was being consumed by the land(which was almost desert-like). There was a grim reaper type of figure along with demons, all telling me what to do. Having me take out their own. They wouldn't do any of it, but used me to do it. There was a part where the demons put hooks in each of my hands and began to pull, resembling Christ on the cross. And I began to pray in the Spirit so I could escape and not feel the pain... they then commanded me to get in the pit. and I fought, but ended up going in- which was the second half of the dream and not shown here.

The key point of the whole dream is that the entire time- I had a sense of superiority. I knew I was better than that- knew I was not what they were saying I was. I knew I didn't belong in that pit! I was a child of God! Royalty! God was with me the whole time. Even when later in the pit- God came to my rescue.

I learned later of all of the symbology and some of it I have never heard of before. So I can assure you this was not my own dream. And all the symbols are in the Bible-so tomorrow I will include the verses.

I know this was long-winded, but this picture is very personal for me. I thank God I was pulled out of the pit <3